A Herd of Two


Like many of you I have always owned more than one horse. I guess you could say it’s like eating only one potato chip – it’s hard to stop at one.

The good thing about that is you always have something to do, someone to love on you, and playmates to have fun with.

But one downside is that you can’t ride ALL of them each time you go out. Or at least I didn’t. I enjoyed going out on a leisurely ride for a few hours on one horse and then coming home and grooming all of the horses.

Even though I only had 3 horses, they each had their own strengths.

  • Jazz was my “bomb proof” horse that I trusted with my life and could ride anywhere, anytime. He was my protector and best friend.
  • Apollo is my “rodeo” horse that has always been fun and exciting to ride. He is also my racehorse because he loves to run as fast as possible. And let me tell you, he could run faster than the wind at times.
  • D’Artagnan was my Liberty horse. Everything we did together we did without tack, on the ground and on his back. We just played and danced together for hours.

But now with Jazz and D’Artagnan gone, it’s just me and Apollo. I thought about getting another horse, but decided I really needed to spend quality and healing time with just me and Apollo.

It has really changed the dynamics and our relationship.

Just as gaining or losing a horse in the herd changes the hierarchy, having only the two of us in the herd has changed how we do things too.

Even though I’ve had Apollo since he was born, minus a short stint when he was stolen from me, it has never been just the two of us. But now that we’ve been together for a bit and we’ve been helping each other heal, we have become even closer.

But sometimes my own fear memories come into play.

Here’s an example:

I mentioned above that Jazz was always my “riding” horse. Even though I taught Apollo how to be ridden and would ride him on trails, over jumps, and took him on group horse outings, Jazz was still always there.

When I went riding by myself, most of the time I would ride Jazz and pony Apollo. Then when I rode Apollo, I usually had a friend who would ride out with me on Jazz. Sometimes I would ride out alone on Apollo and pony Jazz, but that was rare.

Since Apollo was my “rodeo” horse and has always been high strung and quick, which I loved, the thought of now taking him out on brand new trails, in a completely new location, without Jazz or any other horses was a little overwhelming for me.

I don’t know if this has ever happened to you, but this was a new situation for me. How do I handle getting on Apollo, who I hadn’t ridden out alone on in about 10 years? What happens if I get into a bind?

I have to tell you it was a bit scary for me. My confidence in me and my horse faltered a bit.

When I say Apollo was my “rodeo” horse, I mean that he can go from soft and quiet to a bucking bronco in a heartbeat. Just like in the rodeos of old.

He once got spooked and jumped in the air, started bucking, shaking side to side, and spinning around all at the same time while hit the ground and bounced back up in the air doing it all over again.

He could move on all axles. When this happened, I did an “emergency dismount”, as they called it in riding school, as I was barely able to stay on. I would rather jump off safely than be unsafely thrown off.

Granted, this incident happened about 20 years ago, but it was still ingrained in my memories.

This was my own fear memory. It still had a grip on me after 20 years. And I still knew deep down inside that at any moment it could happen again.

Every time I get on Apollo, I am cautious. But thinking about getting on after 10 years of not riding him, was triggering my own fear memory.

I kept telling myself, “he hasn’t ever done anything like this since that incident, but…” I was trying to reassure myself with positive thinking.

Well, you guessed it – I finally told myself that I just had to test it out. And that’s what I did last week.

I thought that since we have become much closer in the past two months at this new facility, and that we have bonded tighter than before, that I would give it a shot.

So, on one of our warmer days last week, 45 degrees, I brushed Apollo down, put the saddle on and the bitless bridle and walked him to the arena. He seemed very calm and easy going as we walked together to the arena (me walking beside him). And he had no issues when I tacked him up.

I kept telling myself, “You got this. He’ll be fine.” I wasn’t sure I believed it though as that fear memory kept reminding me of the possible pain if I got thrown.

Well, we got in the arena and I lunged him first to see if he had any objections to the tack and to see if he would be too high strung to mount. But he seemed good. Ok, move forward I thought.

So, I jumped in the saddle and we took a little stroll around the arena at a walk.

Everything was going well, and he was listening to my requests but…

I’m not sure if it was me, or Apollo, or both of us feeding off of each other, but there was still some tension. We were only doing things at a walk as I wasn’t quite comfortable going into a trot or canter since I know how much he LOVES to run really, really fast.

Now Apollo was still doing well, but he started going over to the gate to say he wanted out. And I decided, “OK let’s try going out on trail”. Fingers crossed.

Of course, I had to keep breathing and relaxing so that I didn’t spook Apollo with my own nerves.

I opened the gate; we went out and we walked down one trail back towards his pasture and he acted like a pro. “Wow”, I thought. “Why was I so worried?” I was now more relaxed and we both were pretty happy and calm walking on this new trail.

Granted, I did cheat because I was headed back towards his pasture and he was happy to go in this direction.

“Push the Easy Button when possible”, I always say.

Then we get to his pasture gate and he stopped. I asked him gently to keep going as the trail went down past his gate, alongside his pasture and then back around by a stream and out to the other side of his pasture.

He’s never been out on this trail, but he has seen a few other horses go out on it and he’s followed them along on his side of the fence. So, he’s familiar with this trail.

He didn’t budge.

My boy Apollo

I asked again nicely, and he moved about two steps, tightened up, hunched his back, and turned his head and looked back at me. Oh boy!

He was obviously telling me that I had one chance to listen and after that he was going to react. This was his warning shot. And I knew that I probably wasn’t going to like his reaction if I wanted to push my request.

Have you ever been in a situation where you knew if you pushed it that there’d be a fight and you had to weigh that decision? Do I push it? or do I let this one go? What are the benefits or losses for each decision? Hmmmmm?

Of course, all of that goes through your head in about one-second flat and you have to decide right then and there.

I decided not to push it, and to listen to Apollo’s request.

It is never worth a fight!

You know, as soon as I relaxed (because I tightened up when he did, in anticipation) and I told him, “ok, that can be enough for today”, he relaxed and was a perfect gentleman again.

He stood there perfectly, let me dismount without issue, and we walked over to the tack shed to take the tack off and get groomed. He remained a sweetheart and stood without being tied, loved the grooming, and was very gentle and attentive the whole time.

He was happy.

However, I’m sure that if I had made the wrong decision in that moment to push, to make him do what I wanted just because, it would not have worked out to my benefit or his.

Those split decisions mean a lot to your safety, your relationship, and your training.

The next day was another beautiful sunny 45 degrees so we tried riding again and this time we walked and trotted around the arena and down the same trail without even a little glitch.

No tightness, no stress, and no “no’s”.

I was even able to do it all over again on the next day. Three days in a row and he was even better the third day. He was a lot more energetic and happier, so we cantered a bit, but then I got a little timid as he started to get too playful with me. Maybe next time.

We kept it at a slow lope, and it worked great for both of us. He really listened to me when I wanted to take it a bit slower. But he listened to me because I listened to him on day 1.

My takeaways from this past week:

  1. By taking things slower and paying close attention to your horse, you actually move your training forward quicker.
  2. Whenever there is a quick decision to be made, make it in favor of your horse every time. It will only help your connection.
  3. Having a close bond and trusting relationship on the ground is priceless when it translates into the saddle.
  4. Everyone has fear memories!

Have you had a situation like this with your horse? I’d love to hear about it in the comments.

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  • Leslie A Roberts says:

    This is very helpful to me because I can totally relate. Had a similar experience once and didn't listen to my horse and got bucked off. I didn't understand and didn't have the courage to get back on. Especially liked "he listened to me because I first listened to him".

    • And just like you, it has been a lifelong of learning that has brought me to listening better and paying closer attention to what my horses are telling me. Just in life, it is a give and take and a cooperative process. I love giving my horses a voice and listening. We do so much together.

  • Elaine Sode says:

    This is pretty interesting for me. Like you, I had two horses. Kite was 20 when I had to put him down last September. My "Steady Eddie", my go to horse, my "take it easy and relax horse". As a result, Mateo who is 9 just didn't get the miles on him. He was a handful (now I know it was a severe hindgut ulcer causing the problems) but at the time you wonder if it’s physical or what.

    I am not getting any younger. Have I lost my nerve? I sure don't want to hit the ground – been there, done that. But with Kite gone, Mateo is the main man. We haven't gone alone on a trail ride yet but last fall we did a few that we had to trailer to. He was a star! We even cantered through the woods – the indecision was there but I could hear him saying – It's OK Mom, we can do this!" When I asked him to come back to me he immediately did so and we continued along on the prettiest canter you'd ever want to see. Each time has been a confidence builder.

    I have a boarder horse at the barn now to keep him company and Mateo has become the boss horse. I feel his confidence building daily and I just know he is becoming my next "Steady Eddie".
    We do a lot of just fun things with groundwork and he has personality plus. And during this time of Covid he is my place to go to unwind and hang out.

    Thanks for this post – I am glad there are others out there just like me.

    • Thank you Elaine. I’m so glad to hear that there are others like you out there too. 🙂

  • ALICE MENDEZ says:

    Hi Teddie, I have only one horse, Embrujo, he is now 18 years old. I think once I wrote about my experience with him, but to make it short, he was not dealt with in a good and gentle way at the beginning, force was used, and although we used to go out into the country and have long walks, trots and canters together there came a time when he just said No More and he would reject being ridden. Little by little we regained confidence with each other and now I can use very little tack, and of course bitless.

    Still, when you described your horse stopping by the gate of his pasture it reminded me of my horse. Many times he does that and I say ok let us do it your way this time. Other times very gently I ask him to go on and he accepts it. But everything has to be in a very gentle way. Otherwise, he stops and will not move a cm. It has also happened that if we encounter his herd out in another pasture he does not want to leave them… so it takes a lot of convincing to take him away. But I will never again use force with him though the "experts" always tell me that he dominates me.

    • As long as your relationship is good, the two of you can work together without force, and you both are happy…there is no reason for anyone to tell you you need to make changes, use force, or dominate each other. It sounds to me like the two of you are right on track and doing what you enjoy. Keep up the good work.

  • This was a very interesting post, Teddie. Thanks for sharing. How different your three horses were. I so look forward to how your riding progresses with Apolo.

    Over the last year I have been learning to listen to my horse more. As per some of your courses I did, I just spent some time with my horse Sahara in her paddock hanging out, etc for several months which fortunately was our winter. I have slowly bought her back into riding but always ask first. Over those two months on occassion I would ride her back to her paddock from the arena or feed area but nothing more than that. Then I jumped on and just sat there while she grazed. (After your post about you jumping on Jazz and just sitting there while he grazed, as you healed from your car accident). (This is about when you and I had our phone call). Another time she walked as far as her paddock gate, then I would jump off. Another time we did two rounds of the arena and then headed back to her paddock. Then she might ride past her paddock gate for another few rounds. Etc, etc. It was really fun seeing where she would take me next. One day she headed through a gate into a another paddock and we had a great jaunt riding down the back of that paddock and back. I hadn't expected her to do that. Generally no two days are the same. We have had quite a few rides out with others now, and if we are on our own, I will often lead her out and ride her back.

    Oh. I floated her to a Christian camp recently who have horses. I have wanted to take my horse there and stay over for a number of years. It finally happened last weekend. And the interesting thing was that when we rode onto the beach there was someone flying a very big kite. I thought she would turn tail but she didn't. She kept on walking towards it. Then we saw another big kite. She kept on walking towards that. I did get off for a bit, mainly to give her back a rest and led her down the beach for a bit but I was really impressed with her so am thinking all this building trust on the ground must be starting to pay off 🙂

    • When the connection is strong and the trust and confidence in your partnership is there…amazing things happen. Thank you for sharing the lovely story.

  • This is soo Nice to read. I do like this all the time and I get more confident and I believe my horse also feels more confident when he knows I am listening. He does not need to spook so much when he is allowed to look and to stop and listen.

    Yesterday when he was free in the arena and I was walking in the middle some sound spooked him and he even ran to me and I felt it as he were seeking my support? I got warm all inside – love. In that moment I was the leader that was allowed to take care of my horse I felt.

    • That’s such a wonderful feeling when you know they are looking to you for support, protection, and love. Thank you for the lovely story.

  • Irena Nicholas says:

    Thankyou for this Teddie. You are very helpful and inspiring always.

    I have had to move my two horses to a new yard recently due to illness of owner of previous yard, and it is quite challenging because they behave differently…..more tense and reactive as they are not yet completely relaxed in their new environment. Plus they don’t want to be apart from each other for a moment…whereas that was not a problem before.

    So your lesson here is very helpful …to listen to them and not push them too quickly

    • They will always talk to us and try to show us what they are feeling. So it is up to us to listen better and to really watch them closer for cues. Then once they realize we are listening, they start talking even more. 🙂 It’s so beautiful.

  • Ahhhh Teddie…….

    I had tears in my eyes reading this! ❤️ I was thinking about the way the horses at my barn are approached, ‘listened’ to (NOT!) and ridden…..so very different! “You need to be the dominant horse.” “Don’t let him make the decisions. You’re the boss.” Etc., etc., etc!

    I don’t ride my rescued Bud, but I do a lot with him on the ground, including a lot of connection. I listen to him as much as he listens to me….probably more actually, Lolol. He’s an opinionated Appy, besides being a rescue. I love listening to his opinions & find that when I do, he’s so very co-operative. I stopped riding a couple of years ago. I don’t feel the need to do so & I’m now 70, so my energy is starting to wane, 😊🤪. I only rode for about 10yrs.

    I LOVE reading about your experiences, thoughts & feelings. Since my horse experience is limited, and I’m at a barn with horses who aren’t ‘seen’, periodically I begin to question my own intuition. You help keep me honest with myself and my higher Self.

    Thank you. 🙏🙏
    Pat 💞🐎💞

    • I truly believe that when you’re around horses for awhile, you natualy pick up many things. One of which is that you can start listening closer to your gut instincts and follow your heart when helping your horse. The two of you start to have your own language and understanding and that’s special. Trust yourself more. <3

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